Log # 50
As the year end approaches, work starts wrapping up the goals and milestones for the year as well. It is a nice approach to divide a year into quarters, quarters into weeks and complete the tasks one at a time. If we apply the same approach to our personal lives and personal goals, it will really push to get stuff done. Having a deadline is important as it gives you a clear idea by when something needs to be completed. There are still 72 days until the year ends and some of the items that I wanted to finish by then are still pending. Work wise, I think I have done fine. Personal, maybe a 6/10? I also don’t appreciate my efforts enough so maybe I am undermining me here but I will be doing a complete year end review some time in December. Each new experience in life is adding something to my life, either a lesson or a beautiful memory. I want to have more and more memories than lessons.
After a fairly long time today I was to present in front of at least 50-60 people. Presentation was ready, talking points were ready and prepped. But as soon as I reached the rostrum and looked up towards the audience, all that confidence faded away. It was so bad that in panic I completely forgot what I was to talk about. Super nervous, shivering voice, I couldn’t look towards anyone as if my head got really heavy to lift. I ended up reading from the supporting notes that I had and it was perhaps the worst presentation I had ever given. I could feel the blood rushing through my cheeks and ears, all turning red. What the heck happened… My work folks are good. They encouraged me after the disaster that had happened by telling me I did well. Did I do well? I don’t think so.
I am not sure what happened. As I have addressed and presented to larger groups before. Perhaps it had been a while since I presented? Anyhow. I will try to redeem myself in the next one later this week. The embarrassment is still stuck with me though. I will learn the art of public speaking too, not only it is important but also essential, especially for me. Rest of the day was also interesting and I may never forget the blast I had later.
It is Diwali today and my only Hindu friend already celebrated it so no party this year. Maybe next year we will have a Diwali party too. Happy Diwali to all those celebrating!
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